Sunday, January 02, 2005

today's weather is freezing cold. anyway i just realised i forgot to wish myself happy 3rd month anniversary to me and my driving licence. 3 down 9 to go. im still free of demerit points. hopefully it stays that way forever.

spent the entire day sleeping in. needed some major catching up on my sleep after the countless late nights i spent out of the house. in a few hours time, its going to be the start of a brand new acadamic year for most people. J1's
moving on to take up the senior role in schools. sec 4's going for orientation at their respective JC's. everyone is probably eagerly anticipating the start of a new term. guys checking out the girls. vice-versa. J2's-to-be would not have touched their school bags ever since hols started which also equals not touching their homework at all. so its going to be yet another mass copying session early in the morning tomorrow. others would be tossing around in bed tonight trying their very hardest to fall asleep. all the late nights prolly messed up everybody's body clock.

as for me, i sit in front of my computer desk and ponder. where do i go from here? what am i going to do? its been 2 long months and i still have not found an answer. depressing. i need to find a direction somehow. and i need to pick up the pieces and get down to taking action real soon. simply left too many things undone.


i figured its going to be a day of misses starting from tomorrow. firstly, ill miss waking up early in the morning to change into my uniform and get ready for school. its ironic how the human mind works. fair enough to say that we will only appreciate something once we don't have them anymore. how queer. secondly, ill miss my friends true friends in college. the ones who actually give a shit about whether im actually dead or alive. you guys know who you are. thirdly, ill miss my classmates. well at least some of them. on one hand its going to be different not seeing them on an everyday basis but on the other, its good riddance to a couple of others. only consolation is probably that i do not have to put with those false fronts and lies any longer. lastly, ill miss all my teammates. i wish i could still stay in the team and contribute to make bowling a success. though we were never that close, i could feel this hidden bond in us and i know you guys will make it far in nationals this year. continue to train hard and i hope i can be there to support you guys in the tournament.

another hectic day tomorrow. enquiring about my school and army stuff. sending eva off at the airport in the afternoon and pool tournament in the evening. not looking forward to any of these events. sigh.

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